Extravagant

Many of you have been praying for me since I received a startling prognosis, and I am so grateful for you.  After tears and wrestling, I finally embraced my new identity as a vision-challenged woman.  After I surrendered, I found that hard place to be laced with comfort and the peace that passes understanding.  I tried to record what I was learning and found I could not begin to plumb the depths of the riches.

The picture in my mind was one of an ever-darkening room in which Jesus waited for me.  It was a room I would have to enter, and I could imagine His words being,

“Do not be afraid, Becky.  Come in.  I am already here, waiting for you.” 

I discovered there is no place I would rather be.

Then, something happened. As planned, I went to a specialist for a second opinion, and she showed me the scan. She disagreed with the first diagnosis and said the reason for my blurry vision is severe dry-eye syndrome, not the AMD which is there but in the very earliest stage.

Surprisingly, it took days for me to receive this news.  I had completely embraced the richness of my new dependence on Him, and I did not want to lose that. I had learned that I was going to be more than okay, no matter what happened.  After all, He was waiting for me in that room. 

Indeed, He is there for all of us in the hard rooms we will inevitably enter.

And now, I have been given an extravagant gift.